Thursday, January 27, 2011

psalm 20:6-7

this verse has been speaking to my heart A LOT lately...

"Now this I know: The LORD gives victory to his anointed. He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God."
-Psalm 20:6-7

i'm sure you can figure why...probably because i have been groveling the last 5 weeks about it: it's all this waiting. it's hard. it stinks. and i can't even put into words how badly i want to bring my son home, or at least know when we are traveling to do so!

i have been laying out his clothes, shoes, bibs, etc. for his trip home and trying not to lose faith that the trip could still be in february sometime. we even already have a couple bags packed, mostly donations, but none-the-less, we want to be ready whenever we get the word to go. however, it's hard to look at those packed bags every day knowing that we don't know yet when we'll go back.

BUT, this verse has still been speaking to me. it's encouraging me to remember that when i'm frustrated over not hearing anything or hearing only bad things about the wait for an embassy appointment from other bloggy friends, i really don't have to worry about those because i know that my God is ultimately in charge. red tape or no red tape. silly bureaucracy or not. He's got his. He knows just exactly when we'll hear the news to come and bring our boy home. He already has that date written on His calendar even though we might not :) so in light of that good news, i'm trying to remind myself that each morning i wake up is one day closer to being with our sweet boy again, and that brings me a lot of joy!

while i'm not perfect at this and fall short a lot, He's working on me. for instance, when driving home yesterday night, i found the frustration and anxiety building up over everything again and then this verse came back to my mind. i quickly began praying out loud {yes, that was me, the crazy lady, driving down the road seemingly talking to myself!}. i was just praying and begging God to take this anxiety and burden from me, and He did. the feelings never quite disappear completely because our little Greer is always in the back of my mind but the anxiety did ease. He is at work in not only me but also in the life of our little boy in ethiopia.

so, i hope this verse brings you some encouragement today too in whatever you are going through. some people trust in chariots and horses, but we can trust in the name of the Lord!!!


Kari said...

Hi Lesli, My name is Kari. I went on Summer Project with your husband...actually met my husband on that trip. Anyway, we adopted our daughter from Kazakhstan in April 2010. OHHH, the waiting is so hard. There is just no way to describe it. I feel for you. So soon, your boy will be home forever. Praying for you as you wait. If you need to vent to another Mama who's been through international adoption don't hesitate.

The Moore Family said...

It DOES bring me encouragement, I LOVE that verse. Thanks! Praying for you all and Greer this week. See you SUNDAY!!!!! :)