Friday, July 3, 2009


*sorry for the recent lull in posts. i have been working hard all week exhibiting at the north american christian convention, so have been getting home late at night and just haven't had the energy to write anything...

however, today i was off work to observe the 4th, and for that, i am soooo thankful because it was an exceedingly hard day and i'm glad i didn't spend it in the office. we had to turn baby sam over to his bio-mom this afternoon, so i was glad i could be at my sister's house with family. it was more sad than i imagined and we are all heart broken. my hope and prayer is that God will continue to guide and protect sam's life, no matter who is taking care of him. he's such a sweet baby and we got to spend a lot of time playing and cuddling before he left. when his bio-mom got there to take him, we all got to kiss and love on him one more time before she put him in his seat to leave. i couldn't handle seeing her drive away with him, so i went back inside but my sister said that he cried when his bio-mom put him in his car seat.

all i can think about tonight is that i hope he's happy and comfortable. over the last few weeks (since he started the weekend visits with his bio-mom), he's started waking up in the middle of the night multiple times, crying and wanting to be held. i'm sure he's confused considering he's never spent the night any where else besides my sister's and my mom and dad's house. i also hope that his bio-mom is committed to changing her life for good. i hope she realizes the type of support system she's taken these boys from and it will make her step up to the plate.

well, that's all i got for now. please pray for my family tonight as our lives all feel emptier. please pray for sam tonight to adjust quickly to his new surroundings. thanks for your prayers.


Amber said...

First of all...I've just found you are cute as a button!

I'm having trouble following what's going on...I read back, I'm assuming you got your first foster placement and have said good bye?.

If so..the first is ALWAYS the hardest. They hold a very special place in your heart...forever.

Praying for...healing all around...

Thank you for visiting me! :0)

Trish said...

Just started following your blog but did you know that I am praying for you all already for you all to be a momma & daddy? Since the day you all got married, I started praying for your family to grow! You can also follow our blog
Can't wait to hear about your next steps and praying for your sis and sweet Sam.